Love?

What exactly is it? Yes we all know when we're seeing a couple in love, looking into each other's eyes, talking and laughing together...we recognise those signs. What if those signs are not there? Is it still called love?

Recently, I met up with a friend whom I have not seen in ages. And I mean years kinda ages. We used to be close, hanging out almost every day and going out at night and staying out late past 2am...chatting about everything from boliao to intellectual, playing and laughing... This friend was one of those few I can connect on all levels with. Even financial business talks. It was easy hanging out with this friend because we were on the same frequncy level on everything. Yeah okay we used to go out for a while, but we didn't become a couple or anything la. We were just very comfortable being great friends. Then by some sudden twist of fate this friend disappeared from my life as much as I did his. No partings (because we weren't like, officially 'together'), no sappy goodbyes. We just suddenly stopped looking each other up. 7 years ago.

Then not too long ago he called and said he wanted to meet up to send me a wedding invite. I was shocked. Because this guy whom I knew - I would NEVER have associated him with being the marrying kind. He just wasn't. But I guess when the right person comes knocking your door will open.

So we met. Weeks after his wedding which I didn't get to attend because we were so busy he didn't manage to pass me the invite.


And we were chatting and talking about where the years in between went. How life planned itself and how we both got so busy with school and everything. Funny thing was, despite being a little sad that I disappeared from his life and him mine, we never felt angry at each other for vanishing. We met up and chatted like how we used to. It felt really good to know that other than the fact that we've aged by so many years (I've known him for 10), we're still the same. I look better than I did 10 years ago la of course. And because of life experiences we now have so much more to talk about. So sometimes aging is a great thing. Lol~

Then I started asking about his wife. I'm genuinely happy for him that he found someone whom he decided he could settle his life down with, and absolutely curious about who this wonderful lady might be, and what she did. This guy's all about feel and timing. A lot like me. But I haven't gotten to the point where I want to settle down yet of course. He told me the timing was right, and that she's nice, all the usual things people say when they want to get married with someone.

From our little conversation that night, I understood that he stayed out late with friends often, and she doesn't interfere or ask too much or demand that he come home to accompany her. I admire that. Honestly. That's a hell understanding woman~ Because if I really love someone, I'm the clingy to death kind. Going out with a group of friends? Bring me!! Introduce me to your friends and let's all hang out together~ Isn't that good? Of cos one-on-one meetings with friends I won't ask that of you la, because I understand you guys meet up to catch up, but big group outings? Why not? I would want to show you to all my friends if I really love you. Nothing wrong with a bit of socialising. And there's no guilt trip should you decide to stay out late with them cos you have me there to understand what's going on.

I then asked a question which stemmed from my inference: "Do you love her?"

He couldn't answer. It seemed like he wasn't sure. "I care about her."

"Don't you want to go home, be in bed with her and hug her to sleep?"

"We are like 老夫老妻，结婚 50年了的那种 lor...I do my own things she don't really chup, she do her things I also never really interfere that kind..."

I'm suddenly reminded of my own relationship.

I'm seeing someone whom I hardly laugh with anymore. And I find that really disturbing already. We hardly chat about things but I attribute it to being together for some time already so maybe it's normal. Not that I like it because I have dated someone for 2 years and still have had a lot to talk about with. It's like something has gone missing, somewhere, somehow. Disappeared. Like the presence of this friend in my life 7 years ago.

I mean, I know he cares. A few weeks ago, I stayed over and woke up to a breakfast tray of prata when he should've been working. He had taken mc to spend time with me. That's supposed to be a good thing, right? But these days, when we have our meals together and I look into his eyes just because, his eyes didn't seem interested. It was like he was uncomfortable with looking into my eyes. No "I feel so blessed to have you" look. No eyes-locked smile at each other. Nothing. He saw me keep staring, and finally looked at me (yes, all this while he was looking all over the place while still facing me, so he should know that I was staring all the while) and went "Yes baby? Why?"

I didn't know if I was being over-reactive. But at that moment I felt sad. Really sad. It wasn't a one-time thing. It had happened quite a lot recently. We hardly send or receive each other's smses anymore. We still meet, yes, but sometimes it felt so empty I wondered why we even did...

I know he cares. And I do too. But what is this? Love? A phase? The so-called "老夫老妻" thing? But we've only been seeing each other less than a year. Okay maybe because I've been busy these past few weeks. We still meet, just not the twice a day kind anymore. Then again, is that reason enough for the occasional emptiness I feel? Maybe. I don't know. I really don't.


I remember I was a hopeless romantic. The 爱情大过天 kind of person. And will do anything for that one person I love.

I used to drive from Woodlands to Tampines every morning at 6 just to send my love to Dover for work. Without fail. And I would do the same in the evening to get the love home. During breaks we would head out to somewhere nice like Kent Ridge or Holland V, just to spend some private time together. The coffee or makan was just an excuse. We'd chat, and laugh, and discuss thoughts. Or we'd just cuddle in the car, holding hands and listening to songs on the radio.

I would burn a CD full of songs with messages I wanted to express. And songs I knew the love would like. And play them whenever we're in the car together. (Yes now I ride, but I used to drive.)

I used to also exchange letters with this guy I was seeing back in school. We would write to each other often, despite seeing each other every other day. It's our way of getting words out the way actions can't. And I would rewrite the entire thing if there was a slight mistake made, just because I didn't want liquid paper to ruin the feel of the letter. He was my 'tree' and I, his 'flower sheltered by the tree'. And I would make the letter pretty by drawing the tree and the little flower on it. He would seal the letter with wax, and present the letter with little stars for me, each star folded representing each time he missed me. And there were LOADS of stars...

I'm the kind who would stare deep into your eyes, touch your face, and marvel at us and how life and fate have brought us together, and just feel blessed to have you in my life...

And I'm the kind whose left hand would REFUSE to let go of your right hand even when I'm driving and making a U-turn (driving an auto car helped, of course). And would sneak quick peeks at you when I'm driving (quick peeks were all I could do to prevent myself getting into an accident).

I can go shopping for Christmas decorations, decorate the car and arrange the present nicely on the dashboard together with the rest of the decorations before heading to fetch you so when you sit down in the passenger's seat, you'll see the decorations and the present, get a nice little surprise, and feel warm and cosy.

I'm also the kind who will smile and feel blessed when we're talking and laughing really hard together, because I know how lucky it is to have someone you love and who loves you who can laugh with you.

Yes I'm that kind of person. The romantic.

And it feels awful when the person you're with doesn't speak your love language... Or worse, when you don't even speak your own love language with that person. At all, or anymore.

Back to my friend. He's the one who's married, not me. And there's no...what do you call that...passion? No "Man I wanna go back to my darling as soon as I can because I haven't seen her in more than 10 hours!!!" 冲动. No "Nah I should be home. She doesn't worry about me la, but I don't want her to be home alone without me" self-disciplined concern.


While writing this post at 3am, he's online. So I'm curious again and asked this question:

"you guys hold hands and talk boliao sweet nothings and hug and steal kisses when you go out?"

"no"


Hearing the "no" made my heart wrench, not because he was a guy I had great chemistry with and whom I knew was as spontaneous as anything, but because of the fact itself that they don't do these little acts of love, made more prominent by the fact that they're newly-weds who only met 2-3 years ago.

It's painful and sad isn't it?

Even if I become 老夫老妻 with my hubby, and 两鬓发白，面黄驼背，and have wrinkled skin and saggy breasts, I would still want my other half to hold my hand when we're together, to steal a kiss when we're out, to tell me things and laugh with me, to look at me in the eye and smile, to make me feel blessed that we have come so far together and treasure me, as much as I would want to do the same for him...

To me, that's how love should feel. I'm not being delusional, and those of you who wants to tell me that true love hardly happens, you've not felt it. Those who tell me you hardly marry the person you love the most, fine, I accept that. But never ever marry someone you don't love. It freaks me out thinking about it. It should be "Seek and Find", not "Seek and Settle"...

You only live once. 轰轰烈烈 一点。Live grandly. Love fiercely.


Love, Hugs, and Kisses,
*~Silver~*

Love?

What exactly is it? Yes we all know when we're seeing a couple in love, looking into each other's eyes, talking and laughing together...we recognise those signs. What if those signs are not there? Is it still called love?

Recently, I met up with a friend whom I have not seen in ages. And I mean years kinda ages. We used to be close, hanging out almost every day and going out at night and staying out late past 2am...chatting about everything from boliao to intellectual, playing and laughing... This friend was one of those few I can connect on all levels with. Even financial business talks. It was easy hanging out with this friend because we were on the same frequncy level on everything. Yeah okay we used to go out for a while, but we didn't become a couple or anything la. We were just very comfortable being great friends. Then by some sudden twist of fate this friend disappeared from my life as much as I did his. No partings (because we weren't like, officially 'together'), no sappy goodbyes. We just suddenly stopped looking each other up. 7 years ago.

Then not too long ago he called and said he wanted to meet up to send me a wedding invite. I was shocked. Because this guy whom I knew - I would NEVER have associated him with being the marrying kind. He just wasn't. But I guess when the right person comes knocking your door will open.

So we met. Weeks after his wedding which I didn't get to attend because we were so busy he didn't manage to pass me the invite.


And we were chatting and talking about where the years in between went. How life planned itself and how we both got so busy with school and everything. Funny thing was, despite being a little sad that I disappeared from his life and him mine, we never felt angry at each other for vanishing. We met up and chatted like how we used to. It felt really good to know that other than the fact that we've aged by so many years (I've known him for 10), we're still the same. I look better than I did 10 years ago la of course. And because of life experiences we now have so much more to talk about. So sometimes aging is a great thing. Lol~

Then I started asking about his wife. I'm genuinely happy for him that he found someone whom he decided he could settle his life down with, and absolutely curious about who this wonderful lady might be, and what she did. This guy's all about feel and timing. A lot like me. But I haven't gotten to the point where I want to settle down yet of course. He told me the timing was right, and that she's nice, all the usual things people say when they want to get married with someone.

From our little conversation that night, I understood that he stayed out late with friends often, and she doesn't interfere or ask too much or demand that he come home to accompany her. I admire that. Honestly. That's a hell understanding woman~ Because if I really love someone, I'm the clingy to death kind. Going out with a group of friends? Bring me!! Introduce me to your friends and let's all hang out together~ Isn't that good? Of cos one-on-one meetings with friends I won't ask that of you la, because I understand you guys meet up to catch up, but big group outings? Why not? I would want to show you to all my friends if I really love you. Nothing wrong with a bit of socialising. And there's no guilt trip should you decide to stay out late with them cos you have me there to understand what's going on.

I then asked a question which stemmed from my inference: "Do you love her?"

He couldn't answer. It seemed like he wasn't sure. "I care about her."

"Don't you want to go home, be in bed with her and hug her to sleep?"

"We are like 老夫老妻，结婚 50年了的那种 lor...I do my own things she don't really chup, she do her things I also never really interfere that kind..."

I'm suddenly reminded of my own relationship.

I'm seeing someone whom I hardly laugh with anymore. And I find that really disturbing already. We hardly chat about things but I attribute it to being together for some time already so maybe it's normal. Not that I like it because I have dated someone for 2 years and still have had a lot to talk about with. It's like something has gone missing, somewhere, somehow. Disappeared. Like the presence of this friend in my life 7 years ago.

I mean, I know he cares. A few weeks ago, I stayed over and woke up to a breakfast tray of prata when he should've been working. He had taken mc to spend time with me. That's supposed to be a good thing, right? But these days, when we have our meals together and I look into his eyes just because, his eyes didn't seem interested. It was like he was uncomfortable with looking into my eyes. No "I feel so blessed to have you" look. No eyes-locked smile at each other. Nothing. He saw me keep staring, and finally looked at me (yes, all this while he was looking all over the place while still facing me, so he should know that I was staring all the while) and went "Yes baby? Why?"

I didn't know if I was being over-reactive. But at that moment I felt sad. Really sad. It wasn't a one-time thing. It had happened quite a lot recently. We hardly send or receive each other's smses anymore. We still meet, yes, but sometimes it felt so empty I wondered why we even did...

I know he cares. And I do too. But what is this? Love? A phase? The so-called "老夫老妻" thing? But we've only been seeing each other less than a year. Okay maybe because I've been busy these past few weeks. We still meet, just not the twice a day kind anymore. Then again, is that reason enough for the occasional emptiness I feel? Maybe. I don't know. I really don't.


I remember I was a hopeless romantic. The 爱情大过天 kind of person. And will do anything for that one person I love.

I used to drive from Woodlands to Tampines every morning at 6 just to send my love to Dover for work. Without fail. And I would do the same in the evening to get the love home. During breaks we would head out to somewhere nice like Kent Ridge or Holland V, just to spend some private time together. The coffee or makan was just an excuse. We'd chat, and laugh, and discuss thoughts. Or we'd just cuddle in the car, holding hands and listening to songs on the radio.

I would burn a CD full of songs with messages I wanted to express. And songs I knew the love would like. And play them whenever we're in the car together. (Yes now I ride, but I used to drive.)

I used to also exchange letters with this guy I was seeing back in school. We would write to each other often, despite seeing each other every other day. It's our way of getting words out the way actions can't. And I would rewrite the entire thing if there was a slight mistake made, just because I didn't want liquid paper to ruin the feel of the letter. He was my 'tree' and I, his 'flower sheltered by the tree'. And I would make the letter pretty by drawing the tree and the little flower on it. He would seal the letter with wax, and present the letter with little stars for me, each star folded representing each time he missed me. And there were LOADS of stars...

I'm the kind who would stare deep into your eyes, touch your face, and marvel at us and how life and fate have brought us together, and just feel blessed to have you in my life...

And I'm the kind whose left hand would REFUSE to let go of your right hand even when I'm driving and making a U-turn (driving an auto car helped, of course). And would sneak quick peeks at you when I'm driving (quick peeks were all I could do to prevent myself getting into an accident).

I can go shopping for Christmas decorations, decorate the car and arrange the present nicely on the dashboard together with the rest of the decorations before heading to fetch you so when you sit down in the passenger's seat, you'll see the decorations and the present, get a nice little surprise, and feel warm and cosy.

I'm also the kind who will smile and feel blessed when we're talking and laughing really hard together, because I know how lucky it is to have someone you love and who loves you who can laugh with you.

Yes I'm that kind of person. The romantic.

And it feels awful when the person you're with doesn't speak your love language... Or worse, when you don't even speak your own love language with that person. At all, or anymore.

Back to my friend. He's the one who's married, not me. And there's no...what do you call that...passion? No "Man I wanna go back to my darling as soon as I can because I haven't seen her in more than 10 hours!!!" 冲动. No "Nah I should be home. She doesn't worry about me la, but I don't want her to be home alone without me" self-disciplined concern.


While writing this post at 3am, he's online. So I'm curious again and asked this question:

"you guys hold hands and talk boliao sweet nothings and hug and steal kisses when you go out?"

"no"


Hearing the "no" made my heart wrench, not because he was a guy I had great chemistry with and whom I knew was as spontaneous as anything, but because of the fact itself that they don't do these little acts of love, made more prominent by the fact that they're newly-weds who only met 2-3 years ago.

It's painful and sad isn't it?

Even if I become 老夫老妻 with my hubby, and 两鬓发白，面黄驼背，and have wrinkled skin and saggy breasts, I would still want my other half to hold my hand when we're together, to steal a kiss when we're out, to tell me things and laugh with me, to look at me in the eye and smile, to make me feel blessed that we have come so far together and treasure me, as much as I would want to do the same for him...

To me, that's how love should feel. I'm not being delusional, and those of you who wants to tell me that true love hardly happens, you've not felt it. Those who tell me you hardly marry the person you love the most, fine, I accept that. But never ever marry someone you don't love. It freaks me out thinking about it. It should be "Seek and Find", not "Seek and Settle"...

You only live once. 轰轰烈烈 一点。Live grandly. Love fiercely.


Love, Hugs, and Kisses,
*~Silver~*

Ad: Young Hearts Casual Wear - Candy Shower Collection

NEW LOUNGEWEAR!!!!

I'm getting so many pretty casual wear pieces from Young Hearts that I feel spoilt~ This new collection is by far my FAVOURITE~~~ Candies, Ferris Wheels, Teacups, Cupcakes, and Carousels~ All things sweet and sugary and pretty and nice~ *squeals*

And guess what? This collection is only released TODAY (25th Nov) so you guys reading this before the shops are open? You are the first to see it! *squeals louder*

 Sweet sugary colours~ Makes me feel all girly and sweet and sugary wearing it~ ^.^

 Candy ribbon~

There're lollipops all over~ and sweets. 

And PRETTY PINK LACE!!!!!!!! Aiyoh 甜到~~~~

 All my favourite things. Or rather, every girl's favourite things~

 Pretty lace trimmings at the hem~ I love Young Hearts!!! They really make me feel 16 again~ 

(Though I'm only 21 la~ Always will be. *wink*)

 Now for the 2-piece set~ I love how they always come in a choice of either 2-piece sets or a 1-piece dress. Cos every girl have their own little preference. Of cos, for those who love the sexy and girly feel of sleeping in a dress, as well as the convenience of a 2-piece (like me...), it's ALWAYS hard to make a choice. You can always get both I guess? ;)

All your favourite things now on the top. Complete with the candy ribbon now on the left of your chest.

 And the shorts! I love Young Hearts 2-piece set shorts~ Simply because they always make me smile when I turn around...

 Curious? =D

I'm going to show you something very private okay...I don't show people stuff like this on the streets hor....
















Ready ah?

TADAH~~~~我的屁屁！！！

好啦~ 我不是要你们看我的屁屁啦~ 重点是屁屁上穿的小裤子~

I've since noticed that most of their 2-piece shorts come with a back pocket on the right, but~~~~

LACY RIBBONED POCKET!!!! Awwww~~~~~~~

 Okay sidetrack a bit. This makeup's the nude makeup that I talked about earlier in my tutorial video~ ;) 

I wanted the makeup for this post to be more bedroom-fresh and 清秀~ =)

Okay la also because I had makeup on earlier due to filming, and I was too lazy to redo the full makeup after removing my previous too-heavy makeup. Cos after I finish this post I need to remove makeup AGAIN. 

And I didn't want to spoil the post by posting panda pictures~ 

But~ 清秀也是美嘛~

Okay back to Young Hearts~

You know from the previous Young Hearts post that I have this cupcake soft toy I got from New York Toys'R'Us right?

Thing is, I have another soft toy Ice Cream in the same series~~~

I'm not a sweet tooth person. I was, when I was a kid, but for the past 10 years, I stopped liking sweet stuff. Even chocolates MUST be dark chocolates. (Eh but only people with taste like Dark Chocolates hor.) But I just love these sweet things like the soft toys....and sweet nothings whispered into the ear, and sweet gestures like flowers and hugs and kisses ^.^ ~ 

Abstract sweetness won't make me put on weight~ ;)

 

Lacy frills are everywhere~ And the lace is not those itchy itchy kind like those pong pong dresses our mums used to make us wear when we were 3.  This lace is soft, and feels really comfy against the skin. Aiyah you need to check it out yourself to understand what the hell I'm talking about.

And I'm so proud of the designs, because it's done right here in Singapore~~~

Yup! Young Hearts is entirely Singaporean! Which means all these pretty designs were done by a group of creative minds right here in our small but mighty island~ I'm so so so so proud.

 The sweet on the front left of the shorts.

Silver Ang 'favourited' this collection. ;)

Want to get your hands on them?

How much?

• (Y18-200281) Short sleeve dress - $59.90
• (Y18-200282) Short sleeve top - $45.90
• (Y18-200283) Shorts - $39.90

And where from?

• Young Hearts North Point, #02-37
• Young Hearts Yew Tee, #01-23
• Young Hearts Jurong Point, #02-40A/B

• Intimate Closet AMK Hub, #B1-42/43
• Intimate Closet Hougang Mall, #01-32/33
• Intimate Closet Tampines Mall, #02-16A

 Yes that e-voucher is STILL valid. And will continue to be valid until 31st December 2010. So here it is:

Yah the voucher size is a bit off, but you don't print it out from here la. Click on the voucher, right-click and click on "Open in New Tab", then print out THAT one to be used in the shops mentioned above.

Sugar n Spice n Everything Nice,
*~Silver~*

Ad: Young Hearts Casual Wear - Candy Shower Collection

NEW LOUNGEWEAR!!!!

I'm getting so many pretty casual wear pieces from Young Hearts that I feel spoilt~ This new collection is by far my FAVOURITE~~~ Candies, Ferris Wheels, Teacups, Cupcakes, and Carousels~ All things sweet and sugary and pretty and nice~ *squeals*

And guess what? This collection is only released TODAY (25th Nov) so you guys reading this before the shops are open? You are the first to see it! *squeals louder*

 Sweet sugary colours~ Makes me feel all girly and sweet and sugary wearing it~ ^.^

 Candy ribbon~

There're lollipops all over~ and sweets. 

And PRETTY PINK LACE!!!!!!!! Aiyoh 甜到~~~~

 All my favourite things. Or rather, every girl's favourite things~

 Pretty lace trimmings at the hem~ I love Young Hearts!!! They really make me feel 16 again~ 

(Though I'm only 21 la~ Always will be. *wink*)

 Now for the 2-piece set~ I love how they always come in a choice of either 2-piece sets or a 1-piece dress. Cos every girl have their own little preference. Of cos, for those who love the sexy and girly feel of sleeping in a dress, as well as the convenience of a 2-piece (like me...), it's ALWAYS hard to make a choice. You can always get both I guess? ;)

All your favourite things now on the top. Complete with the candy ribbon now on the left of your chest.

 And the shorts! I love Young Hearts 2-piece set shorts~ Simply because they always make me smile when I turn around...

 Curious? =D

I'm going to show you something very private okay...I don't show people stuff like this on the streets hor....
















Ready ah?

TADAH~~~~我的屁屁！！！

好啦~ 我不是要你们看我的屁屁啦~ 重点是屁屁上穿的小裤子~

I've since noticed that most of their 2-piece shorts come with a back pocket on the right, but~~~~

LACY RIBBONED POCKET!!!! Awwww~~~~~~~

 Okay sidetrack a bit. This makeup's the nude makeup that I talked about earlier in my tutorial video~ ;) 

I wanted the makeup for this post to be more bedroom-fresh and 清秀~ =)

Okay la also because I had makeup on earlier due to filming, and I was too lazy to redo the full makeup after removing my previous too-heavy makeup. Cos after I finish this post I need to remove makeup AGAIN. 

And I didn't want to spoil the post by posting panda pictures~ 

But~ 清秀也是美嘛~

Okay back to Young Hearts~

You know from the previous Young Hearts post that I have this cupcake soft toy I got from New York Toys'R'Us right?

Thing is, I have another soft toy Ice Cream in the same series~~~

I'm not a sweet tooth person. I was, when I was a kid, but for the past 10 years, I stopped liking sweet stuff. Even chocolates MUST be dark chocolates. (Eh but only people with taste like Dark Chocolates hor.) But I just love these sweet things like the soft toys....and sweet nothings whispered into the ear, and sweet gestures like flowers and hugs and kisses ^.^ ~ 

Abstract sweetness won't make me put on weight~ ;)

 

Lacy frills are everywhere~ And the lace is not those itchy itchy kind like those pong pong dresses our mums used to make us wear when we were 3.  This lace is soft, and feels really comfy against the skin. Aiyah you need to check it out yourself to understand what the hell I'm talking about.

And I'm so proud of the designs, because it's done right here in Singapore~~~

Yup! Young Hearts is entirely Singaporean! Which means all these pretty designs were done by a group of creative minds right here in our small but mighty island~ I'm so so so so proud.

 The sweet on the front left of the shorts.

Silver Ang 'favourited' this collection. ;)

Want to get your hands on them?

How much?

• (Y18-200281) Short sleeve dress - $59.90
• (Y18-200282) Short sleeve top - $45.90
• (Y18-200283) Shorts - $39.90

And where from?

• Young Hearts North Point, #02-37
• Young Hearts Yew Tee, #01-23
• Young Hearts Jurong Point, #02-40A/B

• Intimate Closet AMK Hub, #B1-42/43
• Intimate Closet Hougang Mall, #01-32/33
• Intimate Closet Tampines Mall, #02-16A

 Yes that e-voucher is STILL valid. And will continue to be valid until 31st December 2010. So here it is:

Yah the voucher size is a bit off, but you don't print it out from here la. Click on the voucher, right-click and click on "Open in New Tab", then print out THAT one to be used in the shops mentioned above.

Sugar n Spice n Everything Nice,
*~Silver~*

Puberty Number 2

I know I'm in the middle of Disneyland post, but I just had to post this today because I wrote this post BEFORE I went to Hong Kong and never published it. I promise I'll get back to Disneyland-writing soonest possible yeah? Loves~~~

Okay.

I wish this post is about my boobs growing again...Losing weight in my younger days has led to mass loss in the chest area as well... The thing about boobs is this...when you lose the weight, it goes with the rest of the fat that goes, but when you put on weight again, the fats deposit themselves everywhere else, and I MEAN everywhere else....hips, tummy, face, arms....EXCEPT the boobs. Why like that huh? =(

Never mind. My point today is not about boobs. (Sorry guys!)

I'm having a pimple outburst. Okay maybe just an outbreak, but because I HARDLY get pimples now that I'm past my puberty years, suddenly discovering acne on my face is a BIG THING~~~so it's an outburst to me.

I feel like I'm in school once again... Because of the pimples on my chin...

Yes laugh at me all you want. I had braces. But now I have chio teeth, so go on...keep laughing...

And Magdalyn, if you're stalking me still (read here if you're unfamiliar with her), I can TOTALLY understand why you thought I went for rhinoplasty~ 

It's true that nose bridges grow taller as you grow older~ 老天有在照着我~~~hiak hiak~~~  Okay la I still don't have like a super jiam nose...but who cares~ Still chio~ ;)

Wait where were we? Oh the pimples on the chin!! Yah check out the pimple scars on my chin back when I was in JC. =P

I have to say, my skin, when it is flawless (without the pimples la), is a result of diligence. And I mean proper makeup removal, proper cleansing, and good moisturization immediately after the cleansing. This I cannot stress enough. When you wash your face, especially with facial foam, you're stripping your skin of whatever dirt, residual makeup, as well as dead skin and sebum (note: oil) that's on your face. And these dead cells and sebum, when not in excess, actually acts as a protective layer on your skin against the dirt and bacteria which may get onto your face because of dirty bed linen, or your roving hands which find their way often onto your face. (God knows how many times we actually touch our faces per day~!!!) So after cleansing your face, please IMMEDIATELY apply your toner/moisturizer to protect your skin. Facial foam strips your face of moisture as well, and you know how skin that's too dry acts up by producing more sebum (note: oil!!!) which may clog your pores and cause pimples. Uh uh~We don't want that.

Remove makeup, cleanse, tone, moisturize. Always. Unless you're using a facial mask sheet after cleansing then it's a different story...

So what's the story? Before this week, all was fine~~~

Great skin, no problems~

And I was diligent with my skincare routine, even this:

White or black masks...facial sheets or peel-off masks...as long as they're good for my skin, bring them on man... I do masks once every 3 days. If I can't? AT LEAST once a week. Never neglect your mask treatments for more than 2 weeks, you don't want to bear with the consequences. Of course, there are procedures and services you can seek from the professionals, but don't you want to prevent the problems from happening at all if you can help it?

Okay la when problems happen, it's not like we want them to right? Even MYSELF have skin issues like ACNE, at this age....(not like I'm old la...but I'm PAST puberty!!!)

And *guilty, averts everyone's eyes*, it's because for this past week, I have been leaving my makeup on for the whole day, the whole night, and even refusing to remove them after I get home and ONLY just before I climb into bed, I remove them. Hiao lor~ What else? I just thought I looked so pretty with the makeup on, I just MIGHT take some more pictures i.e camwhore for my blog posts~~~ Plus the fact that I sometimes became lazy and slept with my makeup on. On these occasions, chances are I dozed off. And dozing off also means sleeping with the lights left on. BAD idea. Lights do something to your cells which causes them to not be able to rest...read somewhere before it was because of light energy and ions in the cells...or something like that. 

So I ended up with 2 pimples on my chin one fine day. =(

Plus I scratched my eyelid the day before so there's a red mark there. =.(

Can I stress on the importance of NEVER neglecting your skin, or taking it for granted? *sigh*

Have I gotten started on how I am super guilty of prying the scab off once it dries? =P Like the pimple would dry up right? And I can never resist the urge to manually remove it...with my bare hands. Then it would bleed, and then a scab would form, and then I would pluck it off again....and the cycle continues...

Remember I ride? Touching the handle bars equals as clean as touching the exterior of a car. And then I touch my face~~ OMG~~~ What have I done to my face???

To make matters more complicated, I realized I didn't know what products to get for my face. I've used stuff like Oxy in my secondary school days. Maybe it works for other people, but it has never made my life better. Lol. Most beauty and departmental stores do carry stuff for acne-prone skin. But my skin is not acne prone what, plus most of these products were meant for oily skin. (I think?) I think products meant to treat pubescent problem skin might just be a tad too strong for me? Bear in mind I'm losing my collagen and elasticity slowly cos I'm in my twenties already hor....

So how??? Use whaat????

Okay okay Silver, relax...everything will be over soon okay?

I really hope so.

I got introduced to this product by Bella recently, and I'm really hoping it can do wonders for my outburst. It's called Dermatech Age Defense Cream. Ya I know it sounds like it's not meant for me...I mean, come on? Age defense? But I'm still so young!!! *delusional*

Okay they say women's skin stop collagen production after they're 25? So Ms Ang, you're at the benchmark already, stop whining and do the age-defense thing.

So I've been told that this cream has a lot of good stuff inside, and I thought I should share them with you. =) Here's some of the ingredients found in the cream:

• Organic Silicon - found naturally in our tissues and organs, it propels the body to heal and repair itself.
• Salicylic Acid - Widely used as anti-acne ingredient (YES!!!), it reduces acne scar formation (YESSSS!!!), helps reduce lines and wrinkles(gimme gimme gimme!!!), protects skin from UV radiation (perfect for this biker chick~), and improves skin tone. (Sounds good) Overall, this ingredient has strong anti-viral and anti-bacterial properties!!!
• Blackberry Extract - has been found to prevent the breakdown of collagen and elastin matrix, and prevents abnormal growth of cells, hence beneficial for scar tissues and pigmented lesions~
• Grape Extract - Anti-inflammatory, high in antioxidants, high in silicon, and brightens up the skin...

It is also infused with Rose essential oil and shea butter. Not sure what that means?

Rose Essential Oil

• Soothing & Calming
• Helps de-sensitize skin
• Helps heal broken and fine capillaries
• Moisture-retention ability

 Shea Butter. 

Looks like your normal butter? It's derived from this - 

 Shea Nuts

You must have seen body moisturizers infused with shea butter, I'm sure. But why? I never knew why too, until I went to do a little bit of research... Let Ms Ang tell you...

• Contains Vitamins A, E & F which normalizes, balances, and deeply hydrates skin
• Aids in would healing due to its anti-inflammatory qualities (this product like very good for wounds and scars hor?)
• Has natural sun-blocking powers & helps protect against sun & environmental aggressions
• Absorbs easily without greasy after-feel
• Stimulates cellular metabolism, fights against skin aging

I could go on, but I'd rather you read about shea butter yourself... =D

There are loads more holiao in the cream, but I don't want to bore you guys with the details. Here's a summary of what it claims it can do...

• Complete protection against cell damage caused by UV, hormonal changes, stress etc. (tick)
• Accelerate repair and renewal of cell functions
• Clinical studies done on skins damaged by UV and physical stress (kena beaten???) indicates that after 24 hours of application, imflammations and irritations greatly reduced. (Good. My pimples BETTER heal before my Hong Kong trip this coming Thursday~)
• 3 times stronger than Vitamin C.
• Boost intense repair of collagen matrix (YAY!!!!)
• Slows down process of skin againg, including loss of elasticity. (=D)

I'm so going to try this. Sounds perfect for me. So many anti-inflammatory, anti-bacterial, anti-yucky things, plus it deeply hydrates while healing acne and scars, at the same time helping my skin restore the toing~toing~-ness, all at the same time!!! *keeps my fingers crossed*

Before I get my hands on this, I will have to bear with makeup and concealer to hide the flaws on my chin... (grrrr...) And I promise god, if you're looking after me, that I will be diligent with my skin forever after, even when I am busy to the point of insufficient sleep~ Thank you god~

This is un-edited, un-photoshopped, nothing~ Pure makeup skills. Not bad right? I'll put up a tutorial on how I do my makeup in due course. ;)

I will let you guys know how the cream is after I've tried it okay? Meanwhile, Bella is giving you ladies a chance to win a $100 Bella Voucher!!! Just click here to answer a simple question which your idol here (eh hem...that's~ehhem~me...) set, and if you get it right, the voucher is yours!!! I meant for you guys to have the voucher because I want you to have great skin too, so it's mad easy~ It's like giving free money la~ Love me? ^.^

玩美是种本能

我用来揭开无限的精彩~ - Jolin

In Search of Perfection,

*~Silver~*

P/s: By the time you read this my face has been restored to its former glory, thanks to Bella. ;)