This might be old news,but it's better late than never,eh?Plus I am getting a bit tired of just posting gaming news here,and so are you readers too.
Malaysia Airlines has organised a competition for all you budding filmmakers out there,and it cannot be more simple enough.All you guys have to do is shoot a video not more than 3 minutes long around the theme 'Malaysian Hospitality'.For those who are blur about our country's going-ons,Malaysian Hospitality is MAS's tagline,based on their international flight code,MH.
The winners will not only receive return trip tickets to ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD but also get your commercial shown on the airlines' in-flight entertainment system.To put it in another way,thousands of people flying Malaysia Airlines will be witness to your work.Pretty daunting,eh?Who knows,a famous Hollywood bigshot might give the public tv in front of his seat a glance and be interested in what he sees.
But winning isn't everything(O RLY?),this is the perfect opportunity to have your work judged by the cream of the crop of the local movie scene.Below are the judges who will be reviewing hundreds of entries and pick the winners.You might know some of them,or have seen their flicks.The descriptions are taken off the official site.I have paraphrased some of the sentences but the source is gratefully acknowledged.
Indira Nair,Senior General Manager, Communications
Indira's only been appointed for 4 years in her current position for MAS,but her real accomplishments come way before that.As the Chief Talent Officer,Asia Pacific at Ogilvy and Mather,a renowned advertising company,she has "helped the network attract, grow and retain the right people in the right roles. Her role included identifying and recruiting senior talent, developing and leading strategic training programs, internal communications and knowledge management.
Indira has worked with a number of networks, including Edelman Worldwide, Burson-Marstellar and MDK Consultants. She also worked with the Berjaya Group, where she helped set up Inter-Pacific Communications, the Group’s in-house marketing communications agency."
Tan Chui Mui
Perhaps most famous for her first feature film Love Conquers All,you might also know her as the director behind A Tree In Tanjung Malim and Everyday Everyday,all winning a slew of awards at international film festivals.
Tan Chui Mui is also very versatile in the way that she can play the roles of producer,scriptwriter and occasionally actress as well.Together with James Lee(Beautiful Washing Machine) and Liew Seng Tat(Flower In The Pocket),she set up Da Huang Pictures in 2004.
She is currently working on her next film while still being in the judges chair for this competition.Talk about dedication to her work.
Liew Seng Tat
Flower In The Pocket,though released a couple of years ago,still manages to rake in awards,most recently the Jury prize (Lotus du Jury) in 10th Deauville Asian Film Festival, France. Like studio mate Tan Chui Mui,he also produced a number of shorts before his first feature film.The shorts Bread With Strawberry Jam was a fave at the Malaysian Video Awards,and he has never failed to score the Audience Award each time he takes part.
Bahir Yeusuff
Bahir broke into the public limelight with the release of the "critically acclaimed" film S'kali and has never looked back.He took part in the 15Malaysia Project organised by Pete Teo last year,being at the helm of the short movie Meter,notable for starring UMNO Youth leader and ardent Twitterer,Khairy Jamaluddin.
Besides these guys,you also got Y.Bhg. Datuk Dr. Victor Wee Eng Lye,Chairman of Tourism Malaysia and George Aveling,CEO of TMI Malaysia to please.
if you think you got what it takes to be Malaysia's latest up and coming filmmaker,hit the link to sign up.Hurry though,as the closing date for submission of movie is the end of March!
Me and my mates are entering too,so hopefully we'll meet each other if we end up on the winners' list.Of course,you'll place lower than us ;-)
Finally,the last addition to the Super Street Fighter 4 game has been revealed.And he's none other than Hakan,the long rumoured Arab grappler.Fans may recognise his voice from the not-so-well-hidden voice clip found floating on the Internet.What they aren't prepared for is his appearance.
To sum it up,he looks like what would happened had the Red Hulk mated with Raikage from the Naruto series.He's got the same snarl,and facial hair to boot.
As you can see from the character trailer below,he loves his children and enjoys splashing oil on himself.So,don't expect to receive a very deep story when you're playing him in Single Player Mode.Like Dan Hibiki and Rufus before him,expect some laughs and silliness.And cringe-worthy accents.
You know, random topics are so much easier to write. Stuff which suddenly inspires and sparks off my writing frenzy.
I was tempted to stop at Part 4, cos my story thus far has basically served its purpose. And because really, from there on, it gets a little more than a wee bit messy. AND of course, because some of my readers are gonna slaughter me if I just stop there, since they've expressed severe dissatisfaction that my part 5 took so freaking long. Here comes the drama...
This is a true story, so don't come and ask me if I made it up.
After that very first kiss, we got closer than ever. You know how it is with first kisses. It sorts of breaks all barriers. And then gone are the excitement and flushes you get before that first kiss, and the comfort sets in. You hug, peck, cuddle, hold hands, like you were meant to do so. =D We'd meet every day, even if it was for a while, or even when any of us was busy and it got very late. Because we just started, I thought it inappropriate to bring him home. Furthermore, my mum was tricky when it came to guys I date. So we spent a lot of time outside, at Upper Seletar, Lower Seletar, Sembawang Park, and in the car. Actually, we spent A LOT of time in the car. Either his dad's or my mum's. Talking. Cuddling. Talking. Sleeping. Yup, sleeping. Cos we're not really going to each other's places, and we can't really separate every night, we often ended up snoozing in the car together, cuddled up in the passenger seat in front (not your usual back-seat, as many of you would have thought. We're more kway sio than that. Haha~),
Usually we would meet at the MRT station after his work, which MRT station dependent on whose car we'd be taking that particular night. That's if I was feeling really nice that day. If I was really tired or feeling off, I'd just wait at home. He'd go home first then come pick me up for our little dates. He was really sweet. Once I finished work at Bt Merah, and he took the train down from CCK to Tiong Bahru to meet me despite him having to head home after work to shower first. If it was me I'd have kicked up a big fuss and asked to meet somewhere nearer home. UNLESS I have my own ride. Then that would have been a different story.
I know I know, that is nothing. And I know of partners who travel from Bt Panjang to Pasir Ris to meet their beloveds. But I do appreciate his accomodating me, which doesn't make me feel so stupid. Why I say so is because I've had my fair share of accomodating guys almost ALL the time, and often ended up feeling under-appreciated and grouchy, which sets the PERFECT tone for a quarrel or disagreement. You can see where those relationships went. Might as well, or I wouldn't have grown and decided to love myself more. AND I wouldn't have met Joel. =D
Did I mention when he met me at Tiong Bahru, he showed me a message I sent him cos he wasn't sure what I was talking about, and guess what???? My number showed up as "Dear Dear" leh!!!!!!!!!! (maybe his actual intention was to show me that and not because he wanted to clarify any sms hor~)What what what??? We just started going out, and his number on my phone still showed as his full name ma. He already named me "Dear Dear"!!! Yippee~~~ *skips hops*
Another time I finished work late and he had decided earlier on to make his way to Admiralty first so we could meet earlier for an early Xmas dinner (I was going to Hong Kong the following day and wouldn't be in Singapore for Xmas). In the end I was more than an hour late and he'd had to wait for me. By the time we met it was almost 9ish and most eateries around my area were closing. And guess what, he didn't complain. He didn't show me any sign of discontentment or pek-chek-ness. He just hugged me and smiled and told me he was glad to see me.
That's one thing I love about him. His good temperament. He's hardly angry, or upset about anything. Nothing seems to make him lose his temper. Yes you might say we just started and no one loses their temper at their partners within the first 6 months of the relationship, aka the 'honeymoon period', right? WRONG! I've dated guys who show their very angry or pek chek side within the first 2 months of the relationship. And to be honest, it makes me scared. Like I won't know what to do. Should I try to calm him down? Sweet-talk him and end up having him eng-siu me with a half-hearted smile? Leave him be? Or get annoyed? So it's very nice when you get someone with a good temper. I'm not saying my temper's great. I can get really upset if the certain things that matter a lot to me go awry. And when I'm upset, I mean I'm UPSET. Angry. Dulan. And it'll take quite a bit to make me okay again. Unless you're Alton, which makes it a different matter. For those clueless about Alton, he's my son.
Joel has been getting good at it so far - making me happy again when I'm upset. Sure, he gets quiet and lost and sad and doesn't really know what to do sometimes (cos I'm really quite scary when I'm pissed), but so far, he has managed. You know, I'm a girl, and here's a secret guys - when your girl's angry, or upset, or just plain pissed, she wants you to sayang her. Never mind that you'd try and she'd push you away. Try again, and again, and again. Persist. Don't let her pull away or push you away. Here, I'm going to say this - Be a man. She loves you, and yes, she's not happy, but that doesn't mean she doesn't want you. Just that for us girls, when we're angry, it's hard for us to feel affectionate. Give us some time. Hug us tight. Hold our hands even when we don't want to. Kiss us. If we love you, we WILL return that hug and that kiss. Just be patient with us. That's what love is about, yes? It's not only about the good times. =)
We caught our first movie together - Avatar, in 3D. That makes it my favourite movie thus far. I loved the show btw. BREATHTAKING graphics. Good storyline. Except the blue characters freak me out, though you'll get used to it after a while.
We have been inseparable before my Hong Kong trip, and the Hong Kong trip was trying. I kept trying to find places where I could buy a local sim card which would allow me to make cheap IDD calls to Singapore. And he would call me on Skype.We would chat during his lunch or dinner break. And after his work. We talked a lot, and even though we chatted a lot on the phone, the growing lack of physical presence made me miss him like mad. I brought along my sister's laptop so we could chat on msn/skype and email. No webcam though, cos my laptop was still not repaired then (it got repaired later, but the flap started segregating...-.-).
Which reminds me, as I was halfway through my Hong Kong Holiday posts, much drama erupted and halted the holiday postings.
I returned from Hong Kong on New Year's Eve. He had wanted to pick me up at the airport, but due to work commitments he couldn't make it. Just as well. As much as I had hoped he could come, I thought it might have been better this way, so in case my family members came, I don't have to explain anything or go through an awkward introduction that this guy's my 'friend' which wouldn't be convincing cos I've been flying around for years, and unless you're my significant other, or unless someone's interested in me, not many 'friends' have picked me up at the airport before. You think friends nowadays very free meh?
Then, one morning (02Jan'10), cos we didn't want to head our separate ways home, (plus in the mornings no one's home) so I brought him to my place to chill (in any way it's definitely more comfortable than nua-ing in the car -.-")
So we were lazing, and then I decided to check my mail. And he was just sitting beside me watching me do my stuff.
And I saw this email header:
At that moment, apart from a sudden grip at my chest, my head was suddenly spinning. I was scared, and confused, and dying with curiosity. I gathered myself properly, and opened the email.
He's married? He's FUCKING married? So the ring meant something. It was his wedding band for fuck's sake! What's going on? If he was really married how come he had so much time to spend with me? And we had been talking on the phone till late almost EVERY night. If he has a wife doesn't the wife stay with him? Unless she is an airline crew which meant she would be away for days at a time, especially if she's with an international airline. THEN he would have plenty of time for me. Even so, we've been seeing each other daily.
I turned and looked him in the eye.
"Bb, what's going on?"
"Nothing's going on."
"Then who is she?"
"My ex-girlfriend."
Ah. This I've heard before. This SQ pilot who was cheating on the wife (and my gf) told my girlfriend that he had no girlfriend. And she was smart enough to ask "No girlfriend but got wife la." to which he admitted.
So, still trembling inside, I asked "Ex-girlfriend doesn't mean she's your current wife, right?"
"No." And he pulled me close. He was smiling. His face looks calm, but I could sense that he's tensing up behind the smile.
"BB, who is she, and why does she say she's your wife?"
"Anyone can say whatever they want to say. This is someone who doesn't want to let me go...Nothing's going on.."
Ah....a psychotic girlfriend who could not accept the fact that her relationship's over~~~
Really?
Suddenly I didn't know who to believe. This guy who, apart from spending a lot of time with me and being really sweet and all, has never told me anything about his background, family, life, history, or this girl who suddenly showed up in my gmail inbox who actually seemed nice is probably shaking as she typed the email to me, fearing for the worst.
I started crying. I couldn't help it. After a bad break up last year, yes, I had my fair share of admirers and went on dates, but in the end I had spent almost every night for almost a whole year crying to sleep cos I couldn't let go. Then after finally deciding to let go, I had met Joel, and fallen in love with him, and started to feel like I can be happy again, it turns out that everything might just become bubbles which would soon burst?
He closed in on me, and hugged me tight. "My life is in a mess now, but please don't worry, okay? Everything will be settled by next week, I promise. Don't worry about anything. Leave all the worrying for me to do, okay BB?"
"Don't reply her. Don't do anything. Leave everything to me."
I could no longer speak. A million things were running in my mind. I was scared, skeptical, confused, and worst of all I was lost. I didn't know what to do then. I didn't know how to reply her. I didn't know if I should reply her. How did she get my email? She read my smses to him? How? He's been meeting her too so she has access to his phone? Skype - she has his password so she could hack in? Or she just lives with him so she can just open it up on his computer and see? They must have been really close for her to know his password. Who was she, really? Was she the one I saw in the picture I found of him online then with a girl taken in 2007? Or was she just a psychotic ex-girlfriend? I've been receiving unkind, rude tags on my tagboard saying I was "cheap" and that "I love riding bikes and stealing other people's husbands and karma will fall on me." Were they her friends? And if so, if she was really married, how many people have she talked to about this? It concerned my reputation as well. I could not afford to be in a relationship like this which would kill me in the entertainment industry. After all that I have given up to be back to the entertainment circle, it was just not worth it. I don't want to be The Other Woman, a term I hate so much myself.
Was he really married? Did I really get myself involved with a married man? But he was so young! He had only just turned 25 a few months back! If he was married how come no one at the driving centre told me about it? They knew we went out more than once. Some of them even saw us together outside the driving centre once! No one knew he was married? How could no one know? Unless he didn't really love his girlfriend and got ROM-ed just to make her happy because he was just a drifter in the relationship (someone who just drifts along), and he has never told anyone about her existence. I wanted to run to the Registry of Marriages to find out the truth for myself. At the same time, I wanted to just listen to him and let him take care of everything and not get involved in this potentially huge mess.
I went out with him the next few days with a cautious mind and a reserved heart. Yes, we were still happy, and he made me laugh, a lot. But that matter was there. It was nagging and gnawing annoyingly at me. I still loved him, but repeated rude tags on my blog served as a troubling reminder, and that prevented me from further giving my all then.
I am a woman too, and I have had experience in being desperate in keeping my ex-boyfriend. I know how crazy a woman can get when she has loved too deep and given too much, only to be told the relationship's not working out. Truth it, it really wasn't working out, but I was too desperate to be rational about things then. I only wanted to keep my man, and trust me, I have been foolish before. (Try kneeling down and begging him not to go. Yes, I was THAT stupid)
I wasn't comfortable with leaving that email not replied. Sometimes, all we need is an answer, so we're not left hanging. Women make great scriptwrights - you leave her hanging, you can come up with 20 different twists and possible storylines. I had to go and meet him after his work, but I had a few hours, so I decided to do it - reply her.
Of course, the above emails were just excerpts and not the full email. (I've no idea how to print screen with the whole mail cos my blog settings are too narrow to fit the whole thing.)
I tried, as best as I could, to fathom a proper email to her. To be as objective as possible. After replying her, I decided to open up the Registry of Marriages website. I found the page where you can check the marital status of a person. It would take a few weeks (or a few days, I couldn't remember), and you need to pay $30. WTH. KNN want to check this kind of things government also want us to pay. PUI!
If not for that, I would've just gone ahead with it. I was still lost. I still didn't know if he was really married. I didn't know if he was married have they "broken up"? Have they separated? Are they divorced already? I didn't know shit. And I couldn't take it any longer.
I went to Facebook to check out her account. To see if I can find pictures.
It was a painful process. Looking through all their sweet last-time pictures. At the zoo/birdpark, at home doing face masks together on the bed... They've shared a long time together...6 years is a long time, especially for a 21-year-old...Some pictures were even uploaded on 19Dec'09. I didn't know if they were taken close to that date, but seeing those pictures already made my heart clench and shrivel up. Had Joel really been lying to me? Or was he 敷衍-ing her in the last stages of their relationship?
And then I found it.
The album. The R.O.M album. Dated October 2009. They have only been recently married. Or registered, and pronounced man and wife, in the eyes of the law...
I couldn't move. I didn't know whether what I felt was hurt, anger, or whether I was pissed off. I thought it was painful. I might have imagined it, but I felt my heart fibrillating. I sensed tears, or rather, that ball of air and liquid coming out but got stuck in your chest. I felt my mind going blank. And then I broke down and cried...
You know, random topics are so much easier to write. Stuff which suddenly inspires and sparks off my writing frenzy.
I was tempted to stop at Part 4, cos my story thus far has basically served its purpose. And because really, from there on, it gets a little more than a wee bit messy. AND of course, because some of my readers are gonna slaughter me if I just stop there, since they've expressed severe dissatisfaction that my part 5 took so freaking long. Here comes the drama...
This is a true story, so don't come and ask me if I made it up.
After that very first kiss, we got closer than ever. You know how it is with first kisses. It sorts of breaks all barriers. And then gone are the excitement and flushes you get before that first kiss, and the comfort sets in. You hug, peck, cuddle, hold hands, like you were meant to do so. =D We'd meet every day, even if it was for a while, or even when any of us was busy and it got very late. Because we just started, I thought it inappropriate to bring him home. Furthermore, my mum was tricky when it came to guys I date. So we spent a lot of time outside, at Upper Seletar, Lower Seletar, Sembawang Park, and in the car. Actually, we spent A LOT of time in the car. Either his dad's or my mum's. Talking. Cuddling. Talking. Sleeping. Yup, sleeping. Cos we're not really going to each other's places, and we can't really separate every night, we often ended up snoozing in the car together, cuddled up in the passenger seat in front (not your usual back-seat, as many of you would have thought. We're more kway sio than that. Haha~),
Usually we would meet at the MRT station after his work, which MRT station dependent on whose car we'd be taking that particular night. That's if I was feeling really nice that day. If I was really tired or feeling off, I'd just wait at home. He'd go home first then come pick me up for our little dates. He was really sweet. Once I finished work at Bt Merah, and he took the train down from CCK to Tiong Bahru to meet me despite him having to head home after work to shower first. If it was me I'd have kicked up a big fuss and asked to meet somewhere nearer home. UNLESS I have my own ride. Then that would have been a different story.
I know I know, that is nothing. And I know of partners who travel from Bt Panjang to Pasir Ris to meet their beloveds. But I do appreciate his accomodating me, which doesn't make me feel so stupid. Why I say so is because I've had my fair share of accomodating guys almost ALL the time, and often ended up feeling under-appreciated and grouchy, which sets the PERFECT tone for a quarrel or disagreement. You can see where those relationships went. Might as well, or I wouldn't have grown and decided to love myself more. AND I wouldn't have met Joel. =D
Did I mention when he met me at Tiong Bahru, he showed me a message I sent him cos he wasn't sure what I was talking about, and guess what???? My number showed up as "Dear Dear" leh!!!!!!!!!! (maybe his actual intention was to show me that and not because he wanted to clarify any sms hor~)What what what??? We just started going out, and his number on my phone still showed as his full name ma. He already named me "Dear Dear"!!! Yippee~~~ *skips hops*
Another time I finished work late and he had decided earlier on to make his way to Admiralty first so we could meet earlier for an early Xmas dinner (I was going to Hong Kong the following day and wouldn't be in Singapore for Xmas). In the end I was more than an hour late and he'd had to wait for me. By the time we met it was almost 9ish and most eateries around my area were closing. And guess what, he didn't complain. He didn't show me any sign of discontentment or pek-chek-ness. He just hugged me and smiled and told me he was glad to see me.
That's one thing I love about him. His good temperament. He's hardly angry, or upset about anything. Nothing seems to make him lose his temper. Yes you might say we just started and no one loses their temper at their partners within the first 6 months of the relationship, aka the 'honeymoon period', right? WRONG! I've dated guys who show their very angry or pek chek side within the first 2 months of the relationship. And to be honest, it makes me scared. Like I won't know what to do. Should I try to calm him down? Sweet-talk him and end up having him eng-siu me with a half-hearted smile? Leave him be? Or get annoyed? So it's very nice when you get someone with a good temper. I'm not saying my temper's great. I can get really upset if the certain things that matter a lot to me go awry. And when I'm upset, I mean I'm UPSET. Angry. Dulan. And it'll take quite a bit to make me okay again. Unless you're Alton, which makes it a different matter. For those clueless about Alton, he's my son.
Joel has been getting good at it so far - making me happy again when I'm upset. Sure, he gets quiet and lost and sad and doesn't really know what to do sometimes (cos I'm really quite scary when I'm pissed), but so far, he has managed. You know, I'm a girl, and here's a secret guys - when your girl's angry, or upset, or just plain pissed, she wants you to sayang her. Never mind that you'd try and she'd push you away. Try again, and again, and again. Persist. Don't let her pull away or push you away. Here, I'm going to say this - Be a man. She loves you, and yes, she's not happy, but that doesn't mean she doesn't want you. Just that for us girls, when we're angry, it's hard for us to feel affectionate. Give us some time. Hug us tight. Hold our hands even when we don't want to. Kiss us. If we love you, we WILL return that hug and that kiss. Just be patient with us. That's what love is about, yes? It's not only about the good times. =)
We caught our first movie together - Avatar, in 3D. That makes it my favourite movie thus far. I loved the show btw. BREATHTAKING graphics. Good storyline. Except the blue characters freak me out, though you'll get used to it after a while.
We have been inseparable before my Hong Kong trip, and the Hong Kong trip was trying. I kept trying to find places where I could buy a local sim card which would allow me to make cheap IDD calls to Singapore. And he would call me on Skype.We would chat during his lunch or dinner break. And after his work. We talked a lot, and even though we chatted a lot on the phone, the growing lack of physical presence made me miss him like mad. I brought along my sister's laptop so we could chat on msn/skype and email. No webcam though, cos my laptop was still not repaired then (it got repaired later, but the flap started segregating...-.-).
Which reminds me, as I was halfway through my Hong Kong Holiday posts, much drama erupted and halted the holiday postings.
I returned from Hong Kong on New Year's Eve. He had wanted to pick me up at the airport, but due to work commitments he couldn't make it. Just as well. As much as I had hoped he could come, I thought it might have been better this way, so in case my family members came, I don't have to explain anything or go through an awkward introduction that this guy's my 'friend' which wouldn't be convincing cos I've been flying around for years, and unless you're my significant other, or unless someone's interested in me, not many 'friends' have picked me up at the airport before. You think friends nowadays very free meh?
Then, one morning (02Jan'10), cos we didn't want to head our separate ways home, (plus in the mornings no one's home) so I brought him to my place to chill (in any way it's definitely more comfortable than nua-ing in the car -.-")
So we were lazing, and then I decided to check my mail. And he was just sitting beside me watching me do my stuff.
And I saw this email header:
At that moment, apart from a sudden grip at my chest, my head was suddenly spinning. I was scared, and confused, and dying with curiosity. I gathered myself properly, and opened the email.
He's married? He's FUCKING married? So the ring meant something. It was his wedding band for fuck's sake! What's going on? If he was really married how come he had so much time to spend with me? And we had been talking on the phone till late almost EVERY night. If he has a wife doesn't the wife stay with him? Unless she is an airline crew which meant she would be away for days at a time, especially if she's with an international airline. THEN he would have plenty of time for me. Even so, we've been seeing each other daily.
I turned and looked him in the eye.
"Bb, what's going on?"
"Nothing's going on."
"Then who is she?"
"My ex-girlfriend."
Ah. This I've heard before. This SQ pilot who was cheating on the wife (and my gf) told my girlfriend that he had no girlfriend. And she was smart enough to ask "No girlfriend but got wife la." to which he admitted.
So, still trembling inside, I asked "Ex-girlfriend doesn't mean she's your current wife, right?"
"No." And he pulled me close. He was smiling. His face looks calm, but I could sense that he's tensing up behind the smile.
"BB, who is she, and why does she say she's your wife?"
"Anyone can say whatever they want to say. This is someone who doesn't want to let me go...Nothing's going on.."
Ah....a psychotic girlfriend who could not accept the fact that her relationship's over~~~
Really?
Suddenly I didn't know who to believe. This guy who, apart from spending a lot of time with me and being really sweet and all, has never told me anything about his background, family, life, history, or this girl who suddenly showed up in my gmail inbox who actually seemed nice is probably shaking as she typed the email to me, fearing for the worst.
I started crying. I couldn't help it. After a bad break up last year, yes, I had my fair share of admirers and went on dates, but in the end I had spent almost every night for almost a whole year crying to sleep cos I couldn't let go. Then after finally deciding to let go, I had met Joel, and fallen in love with him, and started to feel like I can be happy again, it turns out that everything might just become bubbles which would soon burst?
He closed in on me, and hugged me tight. "My life is in a mess now, but please don't worry, okay? Everything will be settled by next week, I promise. Don't worry about anything. Leave all the worrying for me to do, okay BB?"
"Don't reply her. Don't do anything. Leave everything to me."
I could no longer speak. A million things were running in my mind. I was scared, skeptical, confused, and worst of all I was lost. I didn't know what to do then. I didn't know how to reply her. I didn't know if I should reply her. How did she get my email? She read my smses to him? How? He's been meeting her too so she has access to his phone? Skype - she has his password so she could hack in? Or she just lives with him so she can just open it up on his computer and see? They must have been really close for her to know his password. Who was she, really? Was she the one I saw in the picture I found of him online then with a girl taken in 2007? Or was she just a psychotic ex-girlfriend? I've been receiving unkind, rude tags on my tagboard saying I was "cheap" and that "I love riding bikes and stealing other people's husbands and karma will fall on me." Were they her friends? And if so, if she was really married, how many people have she talked to about this? It concerned my reputation as well. I could not afford to be in a relationship like this which would kill me in the entertainment industry. After all that I have given up to be back to the entertainment circle, it was just not worth it. I don't want to be The Other Woman, a term I hate so much myself.
Was he really married? Did I really get myself involved with a married man? But he was so young! He had only just turned 25 a few months back! If he was married how come no one at the driving centre told me about it? They knew we went out more than once. Some of them even saw us together outside the driving centre once! No one knew he was married? How could no one know? Unless he didn't really love his girlfriend and got ROM-ed just to make her happy because he was just a drifter in the relationship (someone who just drifts along), and he has never told anyone about her existence. I wanted to run to the Registry of Marriages to find out the truth for myself. At the same time, I wanted to just listen to him and let him take care of everything and not get involved in this potentially huge mess.
I went out with him the next few days with a cautious mind and a reserved heart. Yes, we were still happy, and he made me laugh, a lot. But that matter was there. It was nagging and gnawing annoyingly at me. I still loved him, but repeated rude tags on my blog served as a troubling reminder, and that prevented me from further giving my all then.
I am a woman too, and I have had experience in being desperate in keeping my ex-boyfriend. I know how crazy a woman can get when she has loved too deep and given too much, only to be told the relationship's not working out. Truth it, it really wasn't working out, but I was too desperate to be rational about things then. I only wanted to keep my man, and trust me, I have been foolish before. (Try kneeling down and begging him not to go. Yes, I was THAT stupid)
I wasn't comfortable with leaving that email not replied. Sometimes, all we need is an answer, so we're not left hanging. Women make great scriptwrights - you leave her hanging, you can come up with 20 different twists and possible storylines. I had to go and meet him after his work, but I had a few hours, so I decided to do it - reply her.
Of course, the above emails were just excerpts and not the full email. (I've no idea how to print screen with the whole mail cos my blog settings are too narrow to fit the whole thing.)
I tried, as best as I could, to fathom a proper email to her. To be as objective as possible. After replying her, I decided to open up the Registry of Marriages website. I found the page where you can check the marital status of a person. It would take a few weeks (or a few days, I couldn't remember), and you need to pay $30. WTH. KNN want to check this kind of things government also want us to pay. PUI!
If not for that, I would've just gone ahead with it. I was still lost. I still didn't know if he was really married. I didn't know if he was married have they "broken up"? Have they separated? Are they divorced already? I didn't know shit. And I couldn't take it any longer.
I went to Facebook to check out her account. To see if I can find pictures.
It was a painful process. Looking through all their sweet last-time pictures. At the zoo/birdpark, at home doing face masks together on the bed... They've shared a long time together...6 years is a long time, especially for a 21-year-old...Some pictures were even uploaded on 19Dec'09. I didn't know if they were taken close to that date, but seeing those pictures already made my heart clench and shrivel up. Had Joel really been lying to me? Or was he 敷衍-ing her in the last stages of their relationship?
And then I found it.
The album. The R.O.M album. Dated October 2009. They have only been recently married. Or registered, and pronounced man and wife, in the eyes of the law...
I couldn't move. I didn't know whether what I felt was hurt, anger, or whether I was pissed off. I thought it was painful. I might have imagined it, but I felt my heart fibrillating. I sensed tears, or rather, that ball of air and liquid coming out but got stuck in your chest. I felt my mind going blank. And then I broke down and cried...
While Google celebrated the birthday of a certain Italian priest,a birthday of another kind took place in the homes of gamers everywhere.On the 4th of March 2000,Sony brought to the world a behemoth of gaming,the Playstation 2.Even today,developers are still making games for the PS2,with the long-awaited Sakura War's:So Long My Love Collector's Edition arriving later this year.The game is available on the other next gen consoles,but only the PS2 receives a collector's edition.
Since its release,it has proved to be undoubtedly the best console of all time,bringing to us a number of unforgettable games.It launched with Gran Turismo 3 and Final Fantasy 10 for god's sakes!Definitely a better choice than its decendant's launch titles which include one the worst reviewed games ever,Lair.Game stores still stock the console and sales did nothing but increase.
Eventhough the PS2 has been around for such a long time,I only got it in 2004,four whole years after its release.I still remembered the day clearly,even listing down the games I chose as part of the package the store sells the console with.One Piece,Smackdown Here Comes The Pain,Midnight Club 2,Crash Bandicoot Racing and some obscure US footie game.Looking back,I should have done more research.At least instinct brought me the most fun wrestling game I've ever played.
Over the course of the years since I became an owner of a PS2,I've played a great deal of games.To rephrase a quote from Charles Dickens,"there were the best of times,there were the worst of times".
Here,I bring you my five personal favourites,in no particular order.I did not choose them in terms of gameplay,graphics or story.I chose them based on their replayability,that one thing that makes me hit 'new game' straight after finishing them.Read it and weep.With nostalgia.
Grand Theft Auto: Vice City
San Andreas has jetpacks.San Andreas has territory wars.San Andreas gives you the ability to swim.San Andreas has 'Hot Coffee'.
Vice City has you cruising Miami Beach during a sunset on a PCJ600 with Billie Jean on the radio.Vice City is the only game where I spent a chunk of my time just exploring the map,ignoring the main and side missions.Vice City is the only game where I left it on and did something else,just to listen to the in game radio.
And that is why Vice City triumphs over San Andreas.
Shadow of the Colossus
Team Ico are the masters of atmosphere,and common sense.There are no generic minions to mow down just because they block your way to the boss.There are no locals to interact with while villains are slaughtering their village.There is no item shop that charges exceedingly high prices even when you are the only one who can save the world.
But there is a damsel in distress,and you must kill a number of colossi(the plural of colossus.Colossuses just sounds weird) to wake her up.You don't know why but you must do it for the woman you love.The rest of the engaging story I leave to your playing it.
Like I said earlier,there is no one else but you and your horse and the colossi.You must traverse over plains,mountains and rivers to find each one of them and do battle with.There is no life bar,just weak points scattered about their bodies.How you kill them is entirely up to your imagination.And they are a spectacle to behold.The first time they hover over your puny self,you'd just stare at them with your mouth agape.It almost feels sad to kill them.But there is that matter with the damsel.
Final Fantasy 12
A confession:I love this game.I love the battle system,the world and I especially love the hunt quests.I swear there is no more interesting side mission in the world of video games than the hunt quests of FF12.I literally pour hours into this feature of the game,and even grinded just so I can last longer when battling the next hunt.
The storyline is meh.The cast of characters have annoying accents.But oh fuck do I love me some hunt collecting.
What is this Monster Rancher that you speak of?
WWE Smackdown: Here Comes The Pain
I stopped watching after I realised that Rey Mysterio will never win the World Heavyweight title.But I did not stop playing the games.Here Comes The Pain is the best of the bunch,allowing plenty of freedom and faux exploration during the career mode.Players are able to visit 5 or 6 places in the game and interact with other wrestlers,either becoming allies or plain pissing them off.You can barge into the general manager's office and demand title fights.You can interrupt matches with just a press of the L3 button.
I watched wrestling again when Rey Mysterio pinned Randy Orton to become World Heavyweight Champion in 2006.He lost it a month later.I stopped caring after that.
Bully
If you have been reading my Top 5 posts,you'd have known this game will appear here.I'll just summarise the entire game in one decription:it's GTA set in a school.Nuff said.
These are games that you must give a try.There is life in the old PS2 yet,and it deserves more respect than being relegated to the closet while you buy a PS3.Sing it a birthday song.
Part 5 was supposed to come out, but I'm in the midst of consolidating my smses and making sure I get the dates right? (And apparently I have some dates missing so I need some time digging out sources). So PLEASE be patient while I do so okay? I assure you I have written 70% of it already, and it's sitting solemnly in my drafts list.
Alright, now for some life updates.
I passed my Class 2B final stage 8.01!!!!! After 3 tries man. Kept doing stupid things like forgetting to off signal and stuff. Dumb right? But at last I passed. My TP is SOON. Pray for me yeah?
I brought my laptop and portable hard disk to SONY today. And they told me fixing the laptop flap/screen will cost me about $500ish cos they need to replace the whole flap. And that my portable hard disk can't be fixed cos apparently they don't carry this product in Singapore (they asked me if I got it from HK, but it was a gift so I wouldn't know), and they asked me to bring it to Samsung (cos when I opened the portable hard disk case, what it houses was not a SONY hard disk, but a Samsung one). Grrrr....I hate wasted trips. Wouldn't complain so much if town was 10 minutes away, and doesn't involve ERP and heavy traffic (I rented my friend's car for 2 weeks).
I watched a video clip by Ris Low which left me stunned and speechless.
Right...okay...I shall NOT comment about the condom that flew away, and her technique of removing condoms which will SURELY make you kena some sperm...or her throwing the condom away "somewhere"...
Give me a moment to recompose myself after watching the clip..
Okay...
Almost...
I signed up at Jitterbugs~!!!! Was contemplating between them and Studio Wu, but Studio Wu is at SMU (far and the classes are probably congested with students, and I don't like big classes) and Eastpoint (bloody far, and I was with them once, student-packed). Jitterbugs is at Cathay, and I quite like the crowd there, so yup, I should be happily tip-tapping away again after sooooooooooooooo many years!!!! I started dancing when I was 9, all the way till I was 20. Then PSS came and SQ came and my schedule's haywire and I couldn't go anymore so I stopped. It's like you're reunited with your first love, which you got separated from, but still feel so passionately about. I'm nuts over dance flicks like "Honey" (FYI, I fell in love with Jessica Alba because she can dance~), "Dirty Dancing", "Step Up" (*scream!!!!*), "Shall We Dance?"....you get the picture...
I just realized I've booked a Circuit Revision for 8am later (why the hell did I do that for???) and am having trouble selling it off. So I'm gonna sleep now. Sorry I've no nice pictures to show you guys cos I lent my camera to my uncle for his Korea trip for CNY, and god knows why I didn't remember to take pictures with my very good camera-phone.
Part 5 was supposed to come out, but I'm in the midst of consolidating my smses and making sure I get the dates right? (And apparently I have some dates missing so I need some time digging out sources). So PLEASE be patient while I do so okay? I assure you I have written 70% of it already, and it's sitting solemnly in my drafts list.
Alright, now for some life updates.
I passed my Class 2B final stage 8.01!!!!! After 3 tries man. Kept doing stupid things like forgetting to off signal and stuff. Dumb right? But at last I passed. My TP is SOON. Pray for me yeah?
I brought my laptop and portable hard disk to SONY today. And they told me fixing the laptop flap/screen will cost me about $500ish cos they need to replace the whole flap. And that my portable hard disk can't be fixed cos apparently they don't carry this product in Singapore (they asked me if I got it from HK, but it was a gift so I wouldn't know), and they asked me to bring it to Samsung (cos when I opened the portable hard disk case, what it houses was not a SONY hard disk, but a Samsung one). Grrrr....I hate wasted trips. Wouldn't complain so much if town was 10 minutes away, and doesn't involve ERP and heavy traffic (I rented my friend's car for 2 weeks).
I watched a video clip by Ris Low which left me stunned and speechless.
Right...okay...I shall NOT comment about the condom that flew away, and her technique of removing condoms which will SURELY make you kena some sperm...or her throwing the condom away "somewhere"...
Give me a moment to recompose myself after watching the clip..
Okay...
Almost...
I signed up at Jitterbugs~!!!! Was contemplating between them and Studio Wu, but Studio Wu is at SMU (far and the classes are probably congested with students, and I don't like big classes) and Eastpoint (bloody far, and I was with them once, student-packed). Jitterbugs is at Cathay, and I quite like the crowd there, so yup, I should be happily tip-tapping away again after sooooooooooooooo many years!!!! I started dancing when I was 9, all the way till I was 20. Then PSS came and SQ came and my schedule's haywire and I couldn't go anymore so I stopped. It's like you're reunited with your first love, which you got separated from, but still feel so passionately about. I'm nuts over dance flicks like "Honey" (FYI, I fell in love with Jessica Alba because she can dance~), "Dirty Dancing", "Step Up" (*scream!!!!*), "Shall We Dance?"....you get the picture...
I just realized I've booked a Circuit Revision for 8am later (why the hell did I do that for???) and am having trouble selling it off. So I'm gonna sleep now. Sorry I've no nice pictures to show you guys cos I lent my camera to my uncle for his Korea trip for CNY, and god knows why I didn't remember to take pictures with my very good camera-phone.
And that includes my laptop, my portable external hard disk, my camera, and my shoes.
I own a lightweight 2.5 years old Sony Vaio TZ26. You know, the super thin one? And it's a pretty white colour. I think it's too flat, cos Alton has apparently been walking OVER it a lot. Now the LCD screen is coming apart from its backing. That is, the flap which has the VAIO logo when you close the lappie? Now it's coming apart from the LCD screen itself! WTH~ Can this be repaired? Cos I can't afford a new lappie now leh~ Because if I want to get one I'm gonna get an Alienware M11x or M15x!!! I play games and it's a gamer laptop~ (with customizable keyboard lighting!!!!!!!!!) UNLESS Dell thinks I can promote their laptop well and sponsor me one, or someone is kind and rich enough to buy me one... =D
Now on to my Sony portable hard disk. IRRITATING~! And okay, I was damn stupid enough to leave the USB cable on it wherever I bring the hard disk along. Now the USB port has been dislodged from the hard disk itself, meaning I can't access my pictures for blogging, which explains why the past few entries has soooo MANY pictures. =( This one can repair not?
Need to bring this and the lappie to Sony tomorrow...chances are I need to fork out money for repair....*cries*
My camera is peeling. My Sony T5. From ancient digital ages ago. The silver coating is peeling off, and it cuts into my ring finger and makes me bleed every now and then when I take pictures cos I rest the ring finger underneath the cam when I take pics. And the screen is getting blurry. Like those water stains? Think I got those when I brought the camera to Taiwan. This place where there are big waves and many yellow rocks. And it was raining then. So maybe the rain and the droplets from the waves kena the screen. Anyways, I've been living with those stains for more than 2 years now...
I really need a new camera. *hint*
Somehow, I own so many Sony products. Don't get me wrong okay? If you're the Dell or Philips boss or something. My lappie was bought because it was the one of thinnest and lightest laptop from 2008, and it looked really pretty. My hard disk was a birthday gift from my lovely fans for my 21st birthday, and the camera belonged to my Mummy. I took it and kept it as my own. =P So there~ I am NOT just pro-Sony okay? I've been using a Samsung mobile phone for the past 5 years. And I am open to any good brand, ESPECIALLY if the product looks damn sleek or chio.
My heels. The small thing at the end of the heel which always gets stuck in between drain covers and soil? Most of them have come off and if I wear those shoes, the 'kak kak kak' sound is damn irritating. Heels are supposed to go 'kok kok kok' and not 'kak kak kak'. Hai~ 你们懂我在说什么吗？ If the heels are not faulty, the shoes are broken. Either the skin, or the colour is dirty cos I somehow couldn't walk properly and kicked my right shoe with the left shoe and left a black scrape mark, or I kena stepped on by someone.
Doesn't help that I haven't been buying heels. Less than 5 pairs in the past 2 years? That's tragic for a girl okay? Especially when I have so many events to attend which requires me to wear heels. (Cos I'm not tall -duh-!!!)
And I'm not going into details about my 10-year-warrantied IKEA PAX door which has the rubber tubing fallen off, or the 10-year-warrantied IKEA chest of drawers which has the top drawer door curved outwards so it doesn't close properly on one side anymore. (God knows how come it can curve outwards). Yes, it has warranty. But HOW THE HELL AM I GOING TO BRING THE FULL-LENGTH-ALMOST-CEILING-HEIGHT DOOR TO CHANGE FOR NEW ONE? PLUS THE BLOODY DRAWER DOOR!!!!!
Pek chek.
Can someone offer me a part-time job? Like property trading or equity trading or something. I don't know. What are the part-time jobs out there? (I am not talking about banquetting or waitressing) Just don't ask me to sell insurance okay?
And that includes my laptop, my portable external hard disk, my camera, and my shoes.
I own a lightweight 2.5 years old Sony Vaio TZ26. You know, the super thin one? And it's a pretty white colour. I think it's too flat, cos Alton has apparently been walking OVER it a lot. Now the LCD screen is coming apart from its backing. That is, the flap which has the VAIO logo when you close the lappie? Now it's coming apart from the LCD screen itself! WTH~ Can this be repaired? Cos I can't afford a new lappie now leh~ Because if I want to get one I'm gonna get an Alienware M11x or M15x!!! I play games and it's a gamer laptop~ (with customizable keyboard lighting!!!!!!!!!) UNLESS Dell thinks I can promote their laptop well and sponsor me one, or someone is kind and rich enough to buy me one... =D
Now on to my Sony portable hard disk. IRRITATING~! And okay, I was damn stupid enough to leave the USB cable on it wherever I bring the hard disk along. Now the USB port has been dislodged from the hard disk itself, meaning I can't access my pictures for blogging, which explains why the past few entries has soooo MANY pictures. =( This one can repair not?
Need to bring this and the lappie to Sony tomorrow...chances are I need to fork out money for repair....*cries*
My camera is peeling. My Sony T5. From ancient digital ages ago. The silver coating is peeling off, and it cuts into my ring finger and makes me bleed every now and then when I take pictures cos I rest the ring finger underneath the cam when I take pics. And the screen is getting blurry. Like those water stains? Think I got those when I brought the camera to Taiwan. This place where there are big waves and many yellow rocks. And it was raining then. So maybe the rain and the droplets from the waves kena the screen. Anyways, I've been living with those stains for more than 2 years now...
I really need a new camera. *hint*
Somehow, I own so many Sony products. Don't get me wrong okay? If you're the Dell or Philips boss or something. My lappie was bought because it was the one of thinnest and lightest laptop from 2008, and it looked really pretty. My hard disk was a birthday gift from my lovely fans for my 21st birthday, and the camera belonged to my Mummy. I took it and kept it as my own. =P So there~ I am NOT just pro-Sony okay? I've been using a Samsung mobile phone for the past 5 years. And I am open to any good brand, ESPECIALLY if the product looks damn sleek or chio.
My heels. The small thing at the end of the heel which always gets stuck in between drain covers and soil? Most of them have come off and if I wear those shoes, the 'kak kak kak' sound is damn irritating. Heels are supposed to go 'kok kok kok' and not 'kak kak kak'. Hai~ 你们懂我在说什么吗？ If the heels are not faulty, the shoes are broken. Either the skin, or the colour is dirty cos I somehow couldn't walk properly and kicked my right shoe with the left shoe and left a black scrape mark, or I kena stepped on by someone.
Doesn't help that I haven't been buying heels. Less than 5 pairs in the past 2 years? That's tragic for a girl okay? Especially when I have so many events to attend which requires me to wear heels. (Cos I'm not tall -duh-!!!)
And I'm not going into details about my 10-year-warrantied IKEA PAX door which has the rubber tubing fallen off, or the 10-year-warrantied IKEA chest of drawers which has the top drawer door curved outwards so it doesn't close properly on one side anymore. (God knows how come it can curve outwards). Yes, it has warranty. But HOW THE HELL AM I GOING TO BRING THE FULL-LENGTH-ALMOST-CEILING-HEIGHT DOOR TO CHANGE FOR NEW ONE? PLUS THE BLOODY DRAWER DOOR!!!!!
Pek chek.
Can someone offer me a part-time job? Like property trading or equity trading or something. I don't know. What are the part-time jobs out there? (I am not talking about banquetting or waitressing) Just don't ask me to sell insurance okay?
Yes, I hear you! ("Finally~~~!!!!") I'm back. After taking a long break for the CNY. Nope, I didn't go overseas. I didn't do THAT much visiting either. Just took a break. Online just to check on my facebook and tweet occasionally, and checking mails (not even replying them...). Don't get me wrong. I love to write. Just wanted to be away from the computer for a while. Doing things like bringing Alton out, doing his grooming (yes I groom my own dog), getting my bike lessons back on track, playing my Nintendo DS, playing my Wii, reading...basically doing things I've been slacking on for a while.
And basically think about what I want to achieve this year, now that I'm formally a Wawa artiste and Wawa is now being watched by the media due to successful productions like 《一切完美》 and the upcoming 《魔幻世界》, so which means people will start to pay attention to their artistes more. This is a year in which I want to see myself produce results. I will work hard. 我会努力的。 =)
Oh, I made some CNY resolutions! (Cos I forgot to do so in January, and being Chinese, hey, 正月 is a time for new beginnings!) I have not told anyone about them, so you're the first to know. ;)
Here's my list, subject to addition, not limited to the following:
#1. Lose another 5kg. By end March. This is the first time I'm declaring this so openly. I haven't really been very actively trying to lose weight these past few years. If the weight comes off, it does. This time, I'm actually going to start working on getting Fiona Xie's body ('cept the fact that she's naturally blessed with a beautiful body). Just pray that my boobies don't come off together with the rest of the fats *horrors*.
Tell me, if this is not hot, I don't know what is.
#2. Pick up Cantonese for real. I've been putting off learning this language for the longest time. Same goes for Bahasa Melayu. And I will be fluent by the year of the Rabbit. ;)
#3. Buy a bike. This one I'm almost there. So I'm happy.
#4. Create a wish list for all the things I really really want. So that people know what to give me for my birthday, Xmas, Vday, or just because~ *hint hint hint hint*
#5. Start doing advertorials. And I promise I will NOT just put advertorials and neglect talking to you guys. I still have so many things to write about.
#6. Keep my room neat. *Grrrr...*
#7. Vacuum the house twice a week. And this ties in with #6. *persevere* I am sick of going home to a messy room. I feel bad that Alton has to sleep amidst mess (he recently seemed to love the floor more than my bed, probably because my air-con is crap and the floor is much cooler and Mummy won't squash him).
#8. Blog more. Okay that sounds vague. At least twice a week. And if I'll be gone for longer than that I WILL let you know. Done deal?
#9. I will continue to remain true to my readers. And myself. Means you will see more of Silver Ang. As she is. And that she is growing. While still keeping that (i think) funny and buay hiao bai side. ;)
#10. I will go to my grandparent's place at least once every 2 weeks for dinner. Realized I haven't been going much these past year. They brought me up from when I was a baby. And it's only right that I go visit more often.
#11. If work and finances permit, I will bring them overseas for a holiday. =)
Until I fulfill these, I shall stop here. I promised Part 5 will be after CNY. Today's officially 正月十五, the last day of CNY. I'll start on it by tmr so you should see it up in 2 days. So you guys can stop feeling "sian" that every time you come in there's no Part 5. I never knew you guys liked reading wordy love stories, or drama, as I call it. Anyhows, it shows you like me or my writing enough to keep coming, and I thank you for showing that support. *smiles*
Most of you didn't get to celebrate Vday properly due to it clashing with CNY 初一, right? Today's your second chance. It's 元宵, the Chinese Valentines' Day. So go on, spend time with your loved ones. For the singles, buy your mum or your sister a flower. Make their day. 祝大家元宵节快乐！
This might be old news,but it's better late than never,eh?Plus I am getting a bit tired of just posting gaming news here,and so are you readers too.
Indira Nair,Senior General Manager, Communications
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